I want...

SOOO many things!!!

I want to be able to paint.
I want to be able to play the guitar.
I want to be in better shape.
I want to be able to buy clothes in single digit sizes.

I want to be able to run the half marathon as planned in a couple of weeks, but I allowed winter to defeat me this year. And yes, it was a CRAZY winter, lasting from the end of October until the very last week of April, but still, I totally wimped out in mid-March, and then just threw up my hands in defeat the second week of April, when I decided that I would NOT run a 10K race outside when the snowbanks were still taller than me.
I guess what I really want is to be able to say at the beginning of June that I ran a half marathon last month. And to say that I set a goal and followed through to the finish.

I definitely want to be loved.


And, I think I might maybe want something I'm not at all sure I should let myself have.

I'm still working through that one, though.

And if being loved means letting myself have something I'm not sure I should let myself have, am I a bad person?